AT 55, I SEE THE CURVES AHEAD
For the last week or so progress has been being made. My mind )along with the help of a workbook about escaping my own prison. listening and observing have catapulted me to a level where the onslaught of lunacy issued from the months of others around me does not penetrate. The quietude I enjoy is paying off. I am finally once again figuring out my way.
Many months ago I came to realize that religion is outmoded for me. I knew all along that I did not share the joy of God (the name Jesus is comforting) but the joy that suspecting an active God is in my life protecting me was suspect. It no longer serves to guide me. Capitalism left when Detroit, Michigan died. On this continent we have seen any increase rather than a decrease of poverty . The new markets are growing intellectually while I along with the unemployed die in the wake of its growth., GOD (in the way of fortune and possible prosperity) has moved. Perhaps to CHINA more than likely WALL STREET and in intellectual property. The teaching about deities are in the hands of charlatans who I do wise to avoid. Looking abroad to start anew is appealing. However knowledge is still available. What I learn of myself and the structured world around me (the teaching of Jesus, Muhammad and Universal Philosophers, other ways of governing and the arts and sciences in the west as well as self analysis better serve me during theses monumental times.
I along with millions enjoy visual entertainment. Yet movies (my chosen forum) serves more than a distraction, I seek to advance myself by engaging in analysis while watching. Since the advent of cable television and its grandchild (the DVD), I have accumulated more hours before television sets and devices like it. I am little different from the world around me. Yet I have felt my bones getting stiff. My body craves the mobility of the great outdoors. Perhaps that is why summers have increased in importance., More indoor activities call. If I take notice, those who fear the great outdoors, also conversely enjoy television more. I fear this is no accident. More and more westerners are urged to fear other (strangers, Black Men, Muslims, and pedophiles alike. The lines are being drawn. Increased deaths of Black Men is no accident. It is a sign of our retreat away from a perception of a menace. Along with trees, bugs and spiders, fear is replacing wonder.
I own a great deal of thanks to the ultra conservative who dominate the airwaves. They actually are educating me more than I initially suspected. While liberals once blinded me to embrace their claims for humanity, those who seek to deny equality allow the me the astute observer to witness my own systemic death. As long as I await the out come of those debates in the legislatures and their promulgation, I remain a pawn My say is insignificant in this artificial democracy.
I await my next quarter of growth.
i am KEVIN STEWART
MAKING HIS LIVING SEEING
